ANXIETY

Anxiety...we all have experienced this demon of a creature, some worse than others. The emotion that makes you uneasy, makes you second guess yourself. The demon of all emotions, if you ask me. Now here is the one question: what causes anxiety? Now I am not some psychologist or doctor by any means, but I can tell you what anxiety is to me. Anxiety is that little feeling inside your gut that makes you squirm. It can make you feel so uncomfortable you don't even want to be in your own body.

Now, anxiety isn't something I face on a daily basis thankfully, even though it is normal for people to have to endevor this pain each and every day. I grew up constantly in front of crowds rather it be on a massive stage doing competitive dance competitions or performing a speech in front of lots of adults with beady eyes. Anxiety comes to me at times of uncertainty. At times when I allow myself to second guess myself. I let that little demon take over my mind and try to control not only the outcomes that I choose, but my conscious as a whole.

I feel anxiety is beatable. Is it easy to beat? HELL TO THE ABSOLUTE NO. I want you to look in a mirror. Yes you, don't feel silly put down the computer/phone and look in the mirror. What do you see?....Name them! NO don't name the bad things, name only the good. If any bad things enter your mind let them disappear and say this is about me loving myself. Not loving ourself is one of the biggest problems of today. Whether we aren't happy with our smile, our laugh, our body, eating habits, work, anything that could make you unhappy and anxious forget about them. Look in the mirror and tell yourself I am beautiful who I am today what I am today. Anxiety is not due to just circumstances; I believe it is deeply rooted in the feelings that we have for ourself.

I'm getting personal and very honest here. I use to make a list, yes a list (maybe I am a little OCD hehe) about everything I wanted to fix about myself. I led myself to believe this would help me, and if I didn't accomplish something I wanted to change right away I would feel so anxious. I would feel anxious about fixing myself. It came to a point when I realized WHAT AM I DOING!? If anything is making me anxious this is just adding to the anxiety.

Anxiety and unsureness of ourselves doesn't just lead to affect our lives, but it can grow to affect work and even relationships. Whether you question yourself if your boyfriend/husband is loyal, if you are good enough for him, if he is right for you, are you qualified enough for your job, or in my shoes are you pretty enough to win over clients. Life is too short to sit and worry about every little detail in our life we are unsure about from all over the spectrum. Each day is a new day. Are you allowed to have days when you just want to be by yourself and feel pitty for yourself? If it works go for it, BUT no more than a few hours max one day. Otherwise you will lead yourself into a depression and anxiety like no other.

Today you are you, and this is where you are at in your life. Accept it, and work harder to be where you want to be. Don't self critique, don't put how you feel about yourself into other people's hands. Don't let your emotions overcome your self judgement. Be strong and most importantly be you. We all have moments of unsureness and anxiety to say the least, we're human. Just don't let life overcome you, let yourself overcome life. You are amazing, don't ever let anyone make you think otherwise. 

xx

BB